I've been writing lots of songs lately and thinking about words. It's amazing how we can string together a bunch of lines and curves and communicate ideas beyond images: we can share emotion, questions, answers, and who knows what else? Music is eternal.
My gut hurts. I think it's stress. I'm trying to zen and let things go and just keep going. F'naaa. It's hard. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't excited for life back home, but the last thing I ever want to do is leave Italy. Conflict. I guess there has to be opposition in all things.
Not much to say this week. Thanksgiving is coming up. I'll just write a list of what I'm thankful for.
I'm most thankful for God, and that He talks to me.
I'm thankful that I'm learning how to hear Him better.
I'm thankful for all the things I've learned out here.
I'm thankful for family and that I know what it means now.
I'm thankful for friends, and that they mean everything to me.
I'm thankful for love, because it's the reason for every good thing.
I'm thankful for music.
I'm thankful for stories.
I'm thankful for moments where life feels like a movie.
I'm thankful for sacrifice, and what it teaches me.
I'm thankful for all the missionaries who have reached out and loved me.
I'm thankful that I got to help other missionaries.
I'm thankful for the families that made me feel at home.
I'm thankful for understanding and wisdom.
I'm thankful for light.
I'm thankful for the internet.
I could go on forever, but I think that list is pretty comprehensive as far as my current thoughts go.
Write down some of the things you're thankful for this year in a journal or another special place. A thankful heart is a happy heart, and this time of year helps us look outside ourselves. One thing that's been bothering me is how self-focused many Italians are. Hopefully I can find the ones that God has taught to look out. He always looks out.